Today I was holding Will in my lap talking to him and smiling at him. I love this little boy! But he seemed less interested in me than in the bookcase to his left. I kept talking and bouncing him and trying to get his attention back, and occasionally he would look at me and smile real big. But no sooner had he looked and smiled than he turned away to his bookcase again, which did not make him smile. That made me kinda sad.

I'll bet Jesus feels that way with us sometimes. My attention span for really being still in His presence is pitifully short, even though I am so profoundly satisfied, filled, when I'm near to Him. I read in James 4 "Come near to God, and He will come near to you." Is it really that simple? Sometimes it seems impossible to be still in Him, but I don't doubt that James knew what he was talking about. So maybe I am sitting in Jesus' lap right now, and he is waiting for me to return His smile. Or maybe I am further and need to go looking for that lap I abandoned in pursuit of my bookcase. Either way, I'm excited to know that He'll come when I take the step toward Him.

Oh yeah, I'm the cutest! 

Little Will, Little Will what do you see? 

Hey little man, whatcha thinkin? 

I found my hands! 

Sounds Silly, but...

So I just remembered this funny story from a couple of years ago. I was playing Solitaire at work while waiting for quitting time (there was no work to do at that point) and I had, of course, been losing. This was at a time in my life when I had been wondering if God really spoke to people anymore. So I asked Him to show me if He did or not. If I won the next game I played, then He speaks. Sounds superstitious, I know, but in my heart I really was asking Him to show me. So I played and, to my surprise, I won. But still I thought, "well that could be a cioncidence. Lord, if You really do speak, then make me win again." I clicked "deal" and played. And won again. It could still be a coincidence, so I asked Him to do it again. I clicked "deal". But this time I felt somehow that it would not be a winner. So I clicked deal a couple more times till I felt Him say it was a winner. I won again. Next hand, I felt the "not-a-winner" guiding again and clicked deal till I landed on one I felt in my heart He was "greenlighting". And Lo and behold I won yet again. By that time I felt Him clearly moving in my heart--"here I AM. Listen, because I do speak." It wasn't words, but it was as clear in my understanding as if someone had spoken to me. I had to laugh. Somehow I knew that as long as I was asking then He would keep directing me to the winning deals. (Well, as long as all I wanted was to know Him of course. ;) But He had already made Himself clear to me.

Ask and you shall receive! I guess God will use any means to show us Himself...

*sigh*

I have reluctantly joined the ranks of MySpace users. This is so I can comment on other friends' pages, but not so I can stop blogging here (neverfear). I do not like MySpace very much for several reasons, the newest of which being that I discovered tonight that I cannot comment on my own page. I tried to post a comment and it told me "you must be someone 's friend to post a comment" so then I tried adding myself as a friend to myself but it told me "you cannot add yourself as a friend." SO there will be no comments from me on my own MySpace page until some kind savvy person tells me how. I suppose it is very easy but their interface isn't as intuitive as I need it to be I guess...

Worth reading!

I stumbled across this old entry on my friend Shane's blog...